of love, dreams and many others, playing catch up

i had a really strange dream last night. i dreamt that i was standing on top of those one of high-rise cranes. you know, the sort that they erect when they are building really tall buildings, such that the crane rises together with the building.

so there i was, perched on top of this really high one, overlooking the sea. it looked like the marina bay area. then i jumped into the sea, going in feet first. after that, the rest of the dream was spent analysing the whole 'dive' and whether i would die if i went into the water feet first. so there was a lot of instant replays, seeing the dive again and again.
weird huh?


i was talking with my friend on saturday afternoon. i was just lazing and was slouched on my couch with the tv on, but lets not go there.
she was telling me about how she was suffering and feeling depressed, still pining for her ex. then she told me how she met him last week and felt worse after that. so then we were going on about instant gratification and whether it was worth it or not.
would you go for instant gratification knowing that you would feel like shit after the whole thing was over? i went for that many years ago. now...
my form of therapy? i stay away. not that i'm mean, but it helps me and when i come to that stage, i think only i can help myself. so i'll do whatever that can help myself, thank you very much.

I just finished this neuro-linguistic program thingy last week. there were a lot of visualization in the mind and how to program your mind, so that you will feel motivated and in turn it will increase your effectiveness. i thought that the program was really good and it helped to explore many areas that i did not knew exist.
well, the point is, if you put your mind to it, it can be done.

now pardon me, while i go put my mind to try to figure out today's winning toto numbers.
hey, you know what they say, practise makes perfect.