The sky was getting darker with the minute as the dark clouds started rolling in from the east.

There was once, some years ago, on a day not unlike today, when he was walking along this windy stretch of beach. Well, many cyclists and inline-skaters obviously do not think that it will rain since they are still out and about.

This time, it was different. David did not want it to rain. He prayed that it would stay dry. He was going to stay dry this time round, or at least he will try. Just like what happened that evening.


It was not easy but David was determined to see it through. He must not let her know how bad it felt. Letting her know would just tear her up even further and he did not want that. At least if she thought that he was taking it well, it might make her feel less remorseful. She had blamed herself; he had blamed no one.

He almost succeeded. Barely. He held his tears just long enough until she turned and walked the other way. Her diminishing image got blurry with each step as salt water welled up in his eyes. Still he would not let go because he had to be strong. It was only until he got into the car that everything suddenly overcame him, all the emotions over the last few months. He cried like he had not done so for quite some time now. He just could not control it any longer. Even as his car was travelling down the expressway toward the control tower in the east, the tears just would not stop. Blurred lights seemed to light the way but traffic was light. The wind felt good on his face with the windows down.


Just like right now, the wind felt good on his face. His face was dry. The strong winds blew and the dark clouds rolled passed. Slowly but surely, the sun started to show her face again. It would be sunny again. Well, it was good to know that it would be sunny on the outside. In time to come, the sunshine should shine through and brighten up even the darkest corners of his empty heart.


"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"
- 1st Corinthians 13:13

You know that somethings are just bound to happen. They are going to happen, and you thought that you had made all the preparations necessary. But when it actually happens, you feel like you are slamming into a brick wall.

Just like exams. You know when they are coming. In fact, you know for sure when they are happening and you try your best to study for them... or not. But you can never really be prepared for them, can you? You still get the butterflies in your stomach feeling and the sweaty palms etc.

Why can't we ever be ready?

I guess it kinda takes the fun out of things now, wouldn't it? Life would be so boring without feelings like these.

I'm tired, that result of watching late night soccer, or football as the Englist would like to call it.

Its been one whirlwind of a day with things just happening and thankfully, they fall into place nicely, as well. Which is more than what I can ask for.
Sometimes, isn't it just nice for everything to just fall into place? Probably not. We need the challenge in order to push ourselves to another level. Self-improvement, the hard way?


Oo whoo! My new stationary just came in. Cool... I got new pens and a new card holder!
Ahhh... the simple pleasures in life.
Enjoy

I apologised unreservedly for my untimely and unlikely one-liner blog of yesterday. I must state that the one statement was not directed at any of you readers.
I was in a rush and my blog was incomplete, thus the seemingly short blog.


Sometimes, somethings are just meant to be. At the end of the day, we just need a closure, whether it is the one we are looking for or not. Coincidentally, I am listening to U2's 'Walk On' right now, which is rather appropriate for some of my readers and the writer as well.

"... and I know it aches and your heart, it breaks and you can only take so much... walk on... leave it behind, you got to leave it behind..."

I'm surprised, perhaps even amazed, at the supposed strength, or was it all just a front?

apology accepted.
where do we go from here? that is the next question...


Work was hectic and non-stop today.
Had to multi-task and multi-manage. Its just one of those days when you just cannot have any time of your own, to finish up what was supposed to be finished yesterday. Hmmm... now, i know for sure that there is something wrong. i know!
I should have finished up what I was suppose to finish yesterday, tomorrow! In this way, I will have more time today to do what needs to be done today! Silly me...

Quiet moments by yourself really helps.

In the heat of the day, I just feel like staying put at home. I'm still sweating though, in the shade of my own room.
The great sale is on and I know that I really need to get some new clothes. Mum's being complaining about how there are holes in my work pants. Oh yes, I need to get new boxers too. The old ones are well... old.

Parking is going to be a bitch though. Weekdays in town mean workdays charges for the parking and we all know what that means... way too expensive. Got to find a way around it then...

Hmmm...

A man once went out to try to find more friends. He found none.
The next day, he went trying to be a friend. He found tons...

I read this and thought it to be true. Interesting...

The idea, I guess, is to be friendly to others and amazingly, people start behaving better towards you. Just as I was writing this, I received an email which coincidentally tells the same thing. Its a tad long, but what the heck, we have time... Take a read...


How To Poison Your Mother-in-Law - A Story from China

A long time ago in China, a girl named Li-Li got married and went to live with her husband and mother-in-law. In a very short time, Li-Li found that she couldn't get along with her mother-in-law at all. Their personalities were very different, and Li-Li was angered by many of hermother-in-law's habits. In addition, she criticized Li-Li constantly. Days passed, and weeks passed. Li-Li and her mother-in-law never stopped arguing and fighting. But what made the situation even worse was that, according to ancient Chinese tradition, Li-Li had to bow to her mother-in-law and obey her every wish. All the anger and unhappiness in the house was causing Li-Li's poor husband great distress.

Finally, Li-Li could not stand her mother-in-law's bad temper and dictatorship any longer, and she decided to do something about it. Li-Li went to see her father's good friend, Mr. Huang, who sold herbs. She told him the situation and asked if he would give her some poison so that she could solve the problem once and for all. Mr.Huang thought for awhile, and finally said, "Li-Li, I will help you solve your problem, but you must listen to me and obey what I tell you." Li-Li said, "Yes, Mr. Huang, I will do whatever you tell me to do." Mr. Huang went into the back room, and returned in a few minutes with a package of herbs. He told Li-Li, "You can't use a quick-acting poison to get rid of your mother-in-law, because that would cause people to become suspicious. Therefore, I have given you a number of herbs that will slowly build up poison in her body. Every other day prepare some delicious meal and put a little of these herbs in her serving. Now, in order to make sure that nobody suspects you when she dies, you must be very careful to act very friendly towards her. Don't argue with her, obey her every wish, and treat her like a queen." Li-Li was so happy. She thanked Mr. Huang and hurried home to start her plot of murdering her mother-in-law.

Weeks went by, and months went by, and every other day, Li-Li served the specially treated food to her mother-in-law. She remembered what Mr. Huang had said about avoiding suspicion, so she controlled her temper, obeyed her mother-in-law, and treated her like her own mother. After six months had passed, the whole household had changed. Li-Li had practiced controlling her temper so much that she found that she almost never got mad or upset. She hadn't had an argument with her mother-in-law in six months because she now seemed much kinder and easier to get along with. The mother-in-law's attitude toward Li-Li changed, and she began to love Li-Li like her own daughter. She kept telling friends and relatives that Li-Li was the best daughter-in-law one could ever find. Li-Li and her mother-in-law were now treating each other like a real mother and daughter. Li-Li's husband was very happy to see what was happening.

One day, Li-Li came to see Mr. Huang and asked for his help again. She said, "Dear Mr. Huang, please help me to keep the poison from killing my mother-in-law! She's changed into such a nice woman, and I love her like my own mother. I do not want her to die because of the poison I gave her." Mr. Huang smiled and nodded his head. "Li-Li, there's nothing to worry about. I never gave you any poison. The herbs I gave you were vitamins to improve her health. The only poison was in your mind and your attitude toward her, but that has been all washed away by the love which you gave to her."

HAVE YOU REALIZED that how you treat others is exactly how they will treat you? There is a wise Chinese saying: "The person who loves others will also be loved in return." God might be trying to work in another person's life through you.

In a way, we all try to be what we want to be.
Alas, there are too many distractions and detractors out there.
Our lives is a living contradiction,
Even though we try not to think so.
Do this, don't do that,
Its like this and not like that.
I have stopped trying to understand and instead start to just live it.
Its never as easy, as everyone can attest to it,
But nevertheless its not to say that it cannot be done.
Just the other day, I looked out the car window,
And I saw the moon so full,
That I realized the wonders and beauty of the world at large...


Just my 2 cents worth of worthlessness thoughts on a sleepy Saturday, spent at work, waiting for time to pass and eventually release me from the dreary and mundane task of our lives, that is work.

Oh gosh, its been sometime since I wrote... again.
No excuses... but work has been busy.


There used to be a time when there was a need for us to be among lots of friends. For us to want to hang out with lots of people and doing the IN thing, whatever that means.
These days, we only meet up with a close group of friends.
Even fewer that you can relate your life to.

There are many point of views and there are many ways to get to a place.
Which we choose determines who we are and who we will eventually become. We all know that now, don't we?