knocking over my stuff

i don't know about you but whenever i start my day by knocking over some of my stuff, it usually meant that i would be having a bad day. this morning, i knocked over everything. it started with just 1 tube of something and in the process of saving that, i knocked over more stuff and while i was trying to rescue those, i tipped over the rest. in the end, everything was in a mess. but it was ok, i cleaned them all up.


and, of course, the signs are always right, so i am having a sort of a crummy day. but its ok, things can be much worse. and at the end of it, i will always clean up and things should be back to the same, if not in better condition. if only...


i am for 1, a great advocate of 1 marriage to last a lifetime. if only...
if we only know the future that things might be easier, but alas, we cannot read the future.

my friend got married knowing that she wanted to marry this man and spend the whole life with him. she gave in to all his needs. she took care of him. she did all she could. 1 fine day, she realised that she was unhappy. she was so unhappy that she hated herself. i know how that feels.
i know her well enough to know that she is not a reckless person. she would have tried her darnest to save the marriage. not that it will definitely happen, but for 1 to think of divorce is already quite drastic.
i sympathised with her because i feel that she has really tried her best.

when you love someone, that love never dies.
many a times, its always the other factors that determines what turns out. so what if you love a person? so what if that person loves you? will things work out? if only...

i don't know. perspective...
it takes a strong man to stay in a relationship that has turned sour to try and turn it around?
it takes an even stronger man to say enough is enough, and walk out from 1?
hmmm...