Tuesday, April 05, 2005

what will you do?

i was once asked a very interesting question.
would you marry a person out of gratitude?
for example, at a time when you needed money most, maybe to pay for your parent's life and deathe operation, this person who had been really nice to you but you had no feelings for, came and paid for the whole op, room boarding and all. he even paid for all the follow-ups and he looked after your parent well too. so, would you marry the person because of that?

my friend would do it. me? i can't.
does that make me a ungrateful person or just one who follows my heart?


i'm a friendly person. i try to be nice to everyone i know and around me.
some time back, i found out that a colleague sort of liked me, well, because i was nice and all that. unfortunately, the feeling was not mutual. it was then that i made a decision that i will not give her and more ideas to encourage her. so i try to avoid any situations whereby she will mistaken any of my intentions. conversations became casual and contact became minimum. some of my other colleagues thought that it was not so nice of me, but when i asked them what would they do in my position, they kept quiet. i opted for this because i did not want to do the nasty and go up to her and tell her,'hey, i know you like me, but you know... the feeling is not mutual.'
well anyway, thats the way it has been since. i did not want her to get the wrong idea, and so i made this choice. it might look cruel, i admit, but i think it is effective. after some time, she will move on. i follow my heart...

another cooling day, ain't it?

Monday, April 04, 2005

gay weather and all

i will not go as far as to call it gay weather, since it is rather gloomy and rainy today. i believe it is more of a sleeping-in type of weather, don't you think so?

i had some trouble getting out of bed this morning because the sun was nowhere in sight. was it the same for you?


ok, i admit, i have gotten a haircut and sort of changed my hairstyle a bit. on top of that, i bought a few new shirts for work. this morning, when my colleague first saw me, he laughed out loud and said i was very gay. well... now, i was pretty happy this morning because the weather was rather cooling. but the way he was laughing made me think that he was not referring to my happiness. hmmm... i wonder.

i just hope that i'll only have to put up with this kind of weather for a few more days than i am off to the sunny (hopefully) island of phuket for some sand and sun, on a beautiful beach.
aaahhhh...