implusive behaviour

on impulse, i called a close friend needing to talk. talk about what, i don't really know, but sometimes don't you just get the feeling that you need to download? (some IT talk there. can never get away from the profession)

anyway, well, he was not really available at the time, so i was not able to meet him. so there i was driving around in my car, trying to find a place to park my rear end and just sit down for a nice cup of teh. but with nowhere and no one to go to, i drove around a bit more.

than the strangest thing happened. i started to lose that downloading feeling. 15 mins later, i just felt like i wanted to get some food, drink a cup of teh and then head on home. nope, i did not feel like talking to anyone in between my meal and neither after.

needless to say, i went back home, took a hot bath, read a bit of my book and i went to bed.

frustratingly yours

i was doing some grocery shopping with my mum over the weekend. the whole hypermarket was packed with people, expected, since the lunar new year is just around the corner.

let me tell you that it was a really frustrating experience. there i was trying to push the cart around, trying to keep up with mum and there we had people stopping in the middle of the aisle looking for their stuff. some even stop their shopping cart and just peel off to look for their things, leaving the cart to block the already crowded walkway. i mean am i the only person who can see?

then there are those who would just push pass you in order to get to the front, without a single 'excuse me'. hey, everyone was trying to get some place and the reason we were so slow was because the place was packed. hello!!!

the whole experience got me quite burned up. why does it seem like most of the time, we are walking around and expecting everything to fall our way. it is as if life itself owes us a good living.

photos

i was digging through my drawers, trying to clean them up a bit and i came across yet some more photo albums. the photos were from when i was really young, back in primary school till those from when i was in u.

there were those from my 1st year hall days, and 1 of the albums contained photos from my jc days. the u ones showed a typical late night supper session in our rooms. the primary school one was taken when i had my birthday (could not remember at which age) and there were lots of people around. the jc was of my sailing team, in the 2nd year.

in one, it showed jon on the pc and his playful self, showing the middle finger to the camera. another showed us posing for pictures after we collected our medals, for coming in first in the zone sailing competition.

all great memories.

everything reads a little jumbled up above. well, its just like that in out memories, ain't it? bits and pieces here and there. but whenever i recall them, or when i look at them photos again, it just feels like i was there again.

you knew that it will come to this...

the both of them sat in the semi-lit living room, facing each other, the coffee table between them. the child of 3 years was sleeping soundly in the bedroom, upstairs.

each of them knew that it would come down to this and had worked to avoid this moment. it was a decision that could bring about consequences. it was a decision that could divide a family. it was a decision that would separate a child from 1 of the parents. if only they had talked about it before they got married. but then again, they never thought that it would come down to this. 1 always thought that the other would give in and see it his or her way. that had not happen.

both looked at each other but neither one spoke for a long time. he did not know what to say and was afraid that whatever he said, she would not listen. she did not want to let him down since she knew that he had wanted the child to follow him but she could never betray her own belief, can she?

he spoke first.

"you knew that it will come down to this."

"yes. we even spoke of it even before we got married but we never did manage to resolve it. and now we have a child and we need to make a decision."

"i still think that he should follow me."

"and why is that so? why can't he follow his me, his mother?"

"shouldn't he be following in his father's footsteps?"

"and why not his mother's footsteps?"

they looked at each other and remained slient for the next 10 minutes.

"ok, give me 1 good reason why he should follow the father and i will consider."

"well, for starters, Liverpool has won more European Cups than Man U and have the most league championship under their belt, at 18! So of course, he should support Liverpool with me!"

the mouth

you can call me that, with a shoe in it.
i screwed up over the weekend again. i let myself go and then said things that should not be said. i just thought that i was helping a good friend, but my mouth got off and let out somethings that were uncalled for.
well, the thing is, i realised that i wanted her to do things which i was never able to do. i was wrong and silly to think as such. in fact, i was stupid to think that anyone out there would bother about the so-called advice from me. afterall, i too have failed in areas, so who am i to give any advice at all?
i just don't learn huh, sometimes?

i try to keep my mouth shut for now, until i am asked something.


my friend who was considering a divorce is now trying her best to hold her marriage together. she had spoken with her husband and they had decided that they needed external help. they would probably be going to see a marriage counselor , in an attempt to save the marriage. she will try everything in her capacity to save the marriage.


i am looking to do what will make me happy. if you ask me, i will say the same to you. do what you deem will make you happy. we only live once, well depending on what religion you believe in, but basically, with this 1 life, lets be happy. what do you say?

calendar

i bought a fhm mag last month which came with a nice looking 2005 calendar. needless to say, each month had a great looking babe. so i put it up at the start of this week.

today, we received a notice from my boss that maybe we should watch what we put up and tone down a little. the underlying message was of course to take down those posters/calendars! now i know my boss - who is a guy, incidentally - pretty well and for sure this sort of things will not bother him. sure enough, he hinted that he had to serve us this notice because he was 'advised' by some higher powers to. so his hands were tied. we - yes, i was not the only one - decided that we should not put him in a difficult position, so down came out posters and calendars. sigh... just 3 days...

did i tell you that steph song was feburary?
sigh...

wet wet wet

remember the wet wet wet song sung in 4 weddings and a funeral? love is all around? what do you think? can you feel the love this new year?

anyway, this title came about because of the wet weather this morning. there were traffic jams everywhere, especially the expressways. lots of accident reports over the airwaves and traffic was almost at a standstill for certain areas. many of us came to work later than usual but the rain had not dampen the spirit, just the shirts on our backs.


met up last night. it was a nice meeting, after some time. thanx for the bottle of fine wine, by the way. one of the most expensive one i had ever received and i do believe it will be the most expensive one i will be drinking. i will wait for you to enjoy it together.
we talked like before and said what we wanted to say to each other, stuff which otherwise would not be repeated to others.

i look forward to the rest of year, with abated breath. i can't wait for what lies ahead.

blog anywhere

well, this is the perfect example of blogging anywhere.
i am somewhere i have never been, blogging on a pc that i have never blogged on before, sitting in a chair and at a table which are brand new. blogging anywhere.

my cough is fading away but it comes back from time to time when i eat wrongly. i am beyond that now though. i cannot resist the tidbits piling up and the good food placed in front of me. of course, most of them either deep fried, covered with chocolate or are ice cream filled in someways or another.

damn... i hate coughs.

1st post of 2005

this will be my 1st post of 2005 and its already the 3rd day of the new year. lazy bugger me.

well, how have your new year been so far?
did not really do a countdown to the new year on the eve. was sort of driving around looking for a nice place. let me tell you this. changi beach, if you park at the 1st car park and you take a short walk down the beach park, you will actually come to this part where the airplanes literally flies over you. i mean you can see the underside of the planes and the noise generated by them birds is really really loud.

then i met up with an old friend on new year's day. she brought me to this really nice, new place at bishan park. aahhh... i found a new reading place. its cool and its chill.
well, i was being a doom bringer again when i met her, since i met her good news with a bunch of cynical stories and uncalled for advice. who am i to say and advise anyway?
i was being a pain again.
i do hope that the new place stays open for quite a bit. it was rather empty when we were there and i am worried if it would have enough biz to sustain it for a while. i need a new place to read.


i spent the whole of yesterday lazing at home. it was raining heavily and it was a good plan indeed. watched 'turn left, turn right' again on the vcd. laughed lots and cried a tears because it was such a good story. being so close and yet so far.
i got the book that it is based on. it is a illustrated book and its in chinese. the movie stuck very closely to the idea behind the whole book. of course, there were lots of new scenes, all put in to increase the dramatic effect of the whole movie.
so close, yet so far away... which incidentally, is a song by hall & oates.

all the best for the new year now!
may all your dreams and wishes come true and may you keep to your resolutions.