What happens if it is your parents' opinion as opposed to your partner/spouse? Who do you listen to? What do you say to the other party?

Is it really true that if you love a person, it would not matter what your parents or the other party's parents say? But do we not have an obligation to our parents because they are afterall our parents?

What happens if your partner is asking for something which is something perfectly reasonable and right but the parents are against it? Or vice versa, where the parents are asking for something and your partner thinks otherwise? What then?

Our parents did brought us up and did provide for us, food, shelter, education. Without them, we would not be what we are today.
As humans, we need someone to love, well, most of us. And if that someone comes along, you know that you would do anything for the person. So what happens when 2 worlds collide?
Hmmm...

Do you know what dreams are made of?
Like I mentioned, I have been having a little trouble with sleep. I do not have any trouble getting to sleep, its the staying asleep part thats a bit bothersome. Have been waking up at various times.

Just this morning, I woke up at around 6am, which is about an hour early than my wake-up call. Had to drag myself back to bed after going for a little pee break. I did get to sleep quite easily but the interruption had spoilt my sleep. It did not help that I was plagued with dreams. One dream I remembered was that I sneaked into shower cubicle. In there, I spoilt the showerhead and I was desperately trying to get it fixed. The weird thing was that the showerhead was wooden. Then when someone came along, I suddenly became invisible and I just stood quietly in one corner till the person went away. Then I was back to trying to fix the damn wooden thing again. Mighty weird.
There were others too but like most dreams, I just cannot remember them.

So what are dreams? Just some random thoughts; some subconscious thoughts that can only be released and realised in our subconscious self or is it a part of us that we have suppress and it only rears its face when the active one is dormant?
Or maybe, dreams are just trying to tell us what we really want and what we should be doing.

We are all extraordinary, just that we don't know it ourselves. We are all extraordinary under different conditions and that is a fact which I truly believe in. No matter how ordinary we might think we are, we actually have that special bit in us all.

He is a survivor. He is one, I believe, who can survive under all sort of circumstances. He will take up any job in order to make ends meet. He will do what needs to be done and will not worry if the job is beneath him. He is street smart enough.

She is an archiever. Studying in the most trying of circumstances and yet always able to deliver the results. No matter how tough the surroundings are and how little time she has, she still manages to make the grade.

He is a passionate person for all things he is passionate about. Give him a job which he is passionate about and he will get it done, no matter how long, how aurdous the task is, he always gives his best and at the end of the day, the best is delivered.

She has a heart of gold. No stranger, especially old folks, are too strange to her. She would stop to help them when she sees them struggling, be it with bags of shopping or carts of used cardboard boxes.

And there are many many more people like that out there. Special in their own special ways. Think about it. Try to see it in the those around you. And know that you are special too.

OK! Finished all my shopping over the weekend. Its cool. Spent like hundreds of dollars for shirts, pants, bermuda and 2 pairs of shoes. Not too bad at all, if I should say so myself.
I would not really call it a revamp of wardrode but at least I have some new 'life' in the closet now. By the way, if you guys out there need to buy shoes, go to Peninsula Plaza. The place is not too crowded and the sales staff there are nice. I got my shoes from there and there are about half the price off those you see in town. Not kidding.
I went to Queensway first hoping to find my shoes but the sales people sucked big time and it was way too crowded.


When I was in the army, in my unit, there was an officer who liked to scold us all. He always said that he preferred the Hokkien peng to us 'air' level people. For the uninitiated, it meant that he liked those hokkien speaking soldiers (who normally did not have tertiary education) as compared to those who did 'A' (air) levels. Why?
Well, his reason was simple. When he gave an instruction, the hokkien peng will go straight down to doing the task. As for the 'A' levels? Well, they will spend half a day planning and trying to find out what was the best way to do things, who should be doing what and how best to finish the task in the shortest time. By the time they started, the hokkien peng have already finished the task. Tells a lot about us huh?

Sometimes, it is good to plan. Other times, we should consider throwing away all caution and just dive in. Hey, the only way to really find out if the water is cold or not is to dive in and not just dip your little pinky toe in. Maybe, that nasty officer of mine did have some truth to what he spoke of. Hmmm... food for thought? Which reminds me that it is almost dinner time. Hope you have a good dinner now.

Ughhh... I have not idea why would anyone want to drink beer. It actually tastes really bad and the only thing it can give you is a bitter after-taste. But hey, I'm a sucker, don't you know?

I got pissed drunk last night. Its been sometime since that has happened. In fact, i can't really remember when was the last time it happened. Nope, do not ask me why I got that way, because you will never know. But the point being that I wanted to get sloshed. It was good to know that I was not the only one drinking. My close friends were at hand to drink with me. I guess all of us had something to drink about and something to drink to. Its one of those nights.

I woke with quite a pounding in my head today but at least I managed to get out of bed. Its not too bad actually. Oh yes, have a terrible neckache too, as a result of the head-banging I did last night. Heh heh heh... I felt young again but today, my body told me otherwise.

Everyone needs to escape from life from time to time. Escape from the lousy things
Everyone needs to celebrate life from time to time. Celebrate all the good things that have happened.
Whats your reason?
Either way, the bad tasting drink will always ceom into play. Beer makers have got it good....

I'm really big on tidbits. Crackers, potato chips, chocolates and sweets. Anything thats bit size and with lots of artificial flavourings! I'm probably going to die young at the rate I am going, but at least I will die happy. Well, I hope.

I once read " When you were born, you were crying while everyone around you was smiling. You should aim to live your life so that when you die, you are smiling and everyone around you is crying."
Thats quite true, but if I have a choice, I prefer everyone to be smiling when I die. No, not smiling at me, but smiling with me. They will be smiling because when they see me laying there, they will be reminded of all the good times - dare I say crazy times - that we spent together. I believe that would be best.

Everyday, we wake, we go eat our breakfast, we either to work/school. We come back, we eat and then we sleep. Next thing we know, its the whole cycle all over again. Ain't it boring?

Ain't it boring? Which is why we have a family. A family so that we know who we are working for. So that we know that when we wake and when we go to sleep, we have a family around us.

Which is why we have friends. Friends to work with us. Friends to play with, away from work. Friends to just be yourself with.

Which is why we have the one we love. Because our love one is our family and our friend. Which is why we are waking so that we can see the person and have breakfast with the one you love. Which is why you work and why you want to come home every night. Which is why you want to go to bed at night, because you know that you need to rest - with your the one you love - so that you can have another good day, all for the sake of your family, your friends and your family & friend.

Not too sure what is happening for the past few days. Apparantly, I have been waking at odd times in the wee hours of the day. For what? Well, a couple of times I needed to go to the toilet but for the other few times? Well well well... I really have not much of an idea as to why I was waking up at those times.
Have you had one of those nights before? Its pretty weird huh? I mean, you wake and then you look around and then you try your darnest to go back to sleep but sleep just would not come. And when you finally do get back to sleep, the alarm clock sounds. Time to wake up! But but but... I just got to sleep! .... oh well....

I guess I'm lucky today. Nope, I did wake up once last night. But I'm lucky because I was able to sleep for quite a bit before the alarm went off. Why?
I'm on leave today. (,")
Have a good day now....

From the moment I was introduced this song, I felt so strongly for it and I feel in love with it. The lyrics are powerful enough and I can relate to them. The song is quite specific in its subject but looking at a broader sense, you can apply it in any way actually. Its in mandarin by the way and those who know me would know that I don't really listen to much mandarin songs.
This is more or less a translation of the chorus and it might sound a little weird but believe me, it sounds really good and right in the song.

" Letting go is knowing when to admit that its a mistake,
I should not still hold on to it.
You have the freedom to walk away,
I have the choice to lead my life well.
Letting go is knowing when to wipe my tears dry and look to the future,
Looking for a new direction to move forward.
The world is so wide
I know that one of my dreams will eventually come through."
- Jie Tuo by Zhang Hui Mei

Ok ok, its not exactly the best and most flowing of all songs but hey, like I said, its a mandarin song. It sounds really good and the lyrics are as meaningful as they can be.

I listen to this almost everytime I drive home. It soothes your soul, consoles the person and warms the heart.

"If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How would I know?
If the story's written on my face,
Does it show?
Am I strong enough to walk on water,
Smart enough to come in out of the rain.
Or am I a fool... going where the wind blows...
Where the wind blows..."
- Going Where the Wind Blows by Mr. Big

So are we just going to be like a feather floating in the wind, going wherever it blows us to?
We all have a choice really....

I'm feeling a little musical today.
Its rather gloomy and its raining but I always feel that nothing can be that bad that music cannot cheer you up. OR at the very least, there should be songs with lyrics that you can relate to.

This is from a song which would never make the radio.

" I see you standing, standing all alone,
Its such a lonely, place for you ... for you to be.
If you need a shoulder, or if you need a friend,
I'll be here standing until the bitter end.
No one needs the sorrow, No one needs the pain,
I hate to see you walking out there, out in the rain.
So don't chastise me,
Or think I, I mean you harm.
I don't just leave you,
Leave you strung out much too far, baby.
Don't ever leave me,
Say you'll always be there,
All I ever wanted was for you to know that I care..."
- Rocket Queen by Guns and Roses

Well, I always say that Axl Rose is a bit crazy but he did come up with some really good songs and lyrics during his time.

Heh heh heh...
My cousin told me that I am writing too much sad stuff. Is it? Can it be that my life is that sad? Cannot be, because I remembered having a lot of happy times. Oh yes, I did not write about them. Hmmm... let me let you in on some of my happy times then.


There was a time, during my U days when we were on Industrial Attachment. A group of us would always meet on Friday where we would have dinner and sometimes we go have a drink or two. One particular time, I remembered rather vividly. We actually met at World Trade Centre where we had dinner. Then we went over to the Harbour Front with a tub of Haagen Daz Rum and Raisin (one of me fave) and a couple of drinks (non-alcoholic, mind you). We just sat there on the bridge to Sentosa where we gorged ourselves with ice cream and we talked till pretty late. Can't recall what it was we were talking about but I do know that it was rather fun and it was good. Ice cream, good friends, talk and all under a clear starry sky. Ahhh....

A period of happy times would be during the exam period in 4th year of my U days. Yep, quite amazing but it was during the exam times when we had such fun. A huge group of us would be studying together and it was like communal living. We had breakfast, lunch and dinner together. Everyone was helping everyone with their studies and it was good. In between, we had lots of fun talking cock. Even managed to play street soccer in the mist of all the studying frenzy. It was good and we still think back to the good old study days. Back then, we were all a little crazy.

Ever took leave just to chill with a love one? Just to spend the day watching a movie and then going for a nice little dinner. To just go to ECP and have a nice little fish and chip dinner followed by a walk on the beach. To go to the end of ECP beach, the part where the planes fly directly over you. They are so close, you can actually see the tail logos clearly. To take a walk around the Esplande area and just look out at the cityscape at night. To search out wild dogs in the industrial areas just so we would feed them. Always felt that the dogs there are a little underfed.

My good friend and I held many conversations where words are not exchanged. Sometimes, we just sit in a nice little coffeeshop in the middle of anywhere and we sipped our teas. No words are said, but what we heard and listened to was plenty. Those were good times and in a way, it made us happy. I know him much better now and I hope that it is the same for him.

Sometimes, I can still hear my dad's laughter. Now, my mum is starting to smile her beautiful smile again. In fact, she can even bring herself to laugh a little. I'm glad.

These are my happy times. There are plenty more, but I just cannot recall them all, all at once. We all have our happy times and our low point in lives.


I'm listening to this song right now, don't think anyone of you out there will know lah. Here is the chorus...

" I don't need to be the King of the world, as long as I'm the hero of this little girl.
Heaven isn't too far away, closer to it everyday.
No matter what your friends might say ....

I don't need to be a superman, as long as you will always be my biggest fan.
Heaven isn't too far away, closer to it everyday.
No matter what your friends might say ... we'll find our way... "
- Heaven by Warrant

Sometimes, all it takes is maybe a word or a phase, appropriately put and at the right time, something would click in your mind and you go on a completely different train of thought.
At times, it takes an event or an occasion to bring that about, but it does happen.

My life are full of turning point events but right here right now, I just hoped that for all the turns that I have taken, I have become a better person than I was 10 years ago, at least in the context of life.

Many many things don't always go our ways. Many a times, we just have to pick ourselves up when we fall and just try harder. Many a times we go against the flow because our gut feel, our very heart and soul tell us that this is the way to go. Just like a salmon swiming against the flow because they know that upstream is where they need to go.


I am as I am. Wings without wings to fly.
I keep wondering from time to time what is it that I must do? There was a time when I had this strong feel, a knowledge of what I am to do. I thought otherwise because I did not want to be lonely. But now, I know. I feel the need to provide. To provide for my family and my friends. Sometimes, when a salmon is not strong enough, the stream takes it along and the salmon is pretty hopeless against it. It probably ends up in the nets of passing trawlers and turns up on the table of a family of 4. But, it is afterall food. The salmon has provided for the family, at least for that 1 day, for that 1 meal. And the family would probably remember the wonderful that is the salmon just for those few hours, before the next meal.

I was watching an episode of Smallville last night. It was about a boy who had a tumour in his brain and Clarke Kent aka Superman could do nothing about it. What really got me was when they were talking about fears. Even Superman had his fears, superhero or not.
This morning, I was listening to the Morning Express on the way to work. The question of the morning? Are you getting married soon and if so, what are some of your fears?

Rather interesting actually because if you are to sit down and think about it, there are lots of things that we do out of fear. Why are we working so hard? Because the times are hard and we fear being retrenched if the comapny is cutting staff. Why does one work so hard for a relationship? Because of fear of losing the other. Why do we stop smoking? Because it is unhealthy and we fear for our health. Why do some people fear getting married? Because they do not know what will happen in future, and what if you discover that actually you are not able to live with the one you chose, for whatever reasons?


Hmmm... fear is quite a big motivating factor and also it is something that can hold you back. I guess, if viewed the correct way, fear is a good thing to have around. Fear, a friend or an adversary?
So are you going to let fear hold you back or are you going to use it to spur you on to better things?

Right, I finally passed my certification exam. And if I ever have to take another exam, the sort that needs lots of studying, then it will be too soon!


Movies! Lets see, Charlie's Angels opens today. I want to watch that. I have yet to watch Bruce Almighty and I do hope that it will be around for a bit more. I really want to catch it. Then there is of course Hulk. Hey, I grew up watching the Incredible Hulk TV series, with Br. Bruce Banner wondering the country trying to find a cure. This is a must watch. Wonder what good movies they have install next month? Oh yes, go watch Finding Nemo! Highly recommended!

Now that my exam is over, I am just going to go wild! I need to go shopping, I need to go to the beach. I probably want to just chill and take the NEL mrt line just for the heck of it. Then I am going to go to Habour Front where I will explore the new place. i might want to go to the zoo too, since the last time I went there was when I was around 6-7 years old!

Oh yes, then there is Wedding Banquet, the musical. Its been sometime since I went to see a musical. The last was Chang and Eng and I was really touched. It was really good! I think Wedding Banquet should be good as well, since the lead actress is the one who played the lead in Miss Saigon. Ahhh... musical, it does brings a chill down your spine and its all good....


Food note: Zion Road Hawker Centre. Not the new one, but the older one. There is this stir-fry (Zhi Cha) stall, at the side facing the carpark. They serve a really mean chill fried fish. If you can take hot chill, then you should try this! They fried the fish till its crispy and then they pour the sambal chill on top.
The prices are rather cheap too. Had rice, the chill fish, a plate of vegetable and a meat dish, it cost me about 22 bucks. Not too bad, good for 2.

What a weekend, and it still have at least 12 more hours to run!

I'm just having this terrible migraine. I seldom get this, must be using too much of my mind, which many of my friends would say is every rare indeed. Oh well, an idle mind is the devil's workshop and I definitely do not want to be the devil's advocate now, would I?

A trio of friends of mine was just telling me how I was actually a woman trapped in a man's body? What gives? I mean, face it, if you were to see me, you would probably think that I am more related to the apes in the zoo than more of a woman.
They told me that I have the advantages of both men and women. That I was probably more intelligent (since women are the more intelligent of the 2) and that I would probably understand women better. At the same time, since I was technically a man, I do not need to worry about putting on weight and stuff.
I say, if thats that case, than I would have taken on other traits as well. Being too emotional, too sentimental for my own good. So, is it good or bad?

The moring weather is rather good today, I wonder if it will rain? Looks like it. Ahhh... I really need to go to the beach. I really need a tan. Maybe one of the days, come this week, will be a good time. I can't wait.

I hope my friend does not mind me relating this incident. It just stayed in my mind after I heard it.
Man and woman had some issues with their relationship. Been dragging on for quite a while. Both man and woman really did have strong feelings for each other but some things are just keeping them from going on. One fine day, the man probably asked that the relationship come to an end. He still loved her but maybe its better this way? Woman answered,"I don't know whether to feel mad or to feel sad right now."
Man replied,"Be mad, its easier."


Call me picky or even fussy. Maybe I like to nitpick at everything. But I have spent my life searching for perfection. Not just in myself but in everything. I can find traits in my friends which would make them the perfect friend, the perfect wife/husband, the perfect father, or even the perfect person. But nothing is perfect. Its a matter of whether you can overlook that imperfection.
I have searched long and hard for the perfect partner, or well, the close to perfect partner, since you want to nitpick as well. (,")
I don't think I have high expectations, but expectations I have.
I realised that finding a close-to-perfect partner is not the hard part. There are 'perfect' people out there all around! Its the staying together that poses a problem, ain't it?

I am an idealistic person who likes to watch lots of movies. In the movies, after lots of hardship and hardwork, the man almost always gets the woman, right? Nowadays, some movies even show the woman working to get her man.


"Love like flying, is a dream that must not come true, because heaven must always be out of touch to be meaningful." - The Stolen Child, by Colin Cheong

How true is that? Does something have to always be out of touch in order to mean something to us? Is it true that the apple hanging on the highest branch will always be the sweetest one of them all?


I have come to a significant point in my life. Responsibilites have been added, decisions have to be made. I cannot just be living my life for myself now. But sometimes, I do pray that there is someone else, walking hand in hand with me down this well trodden road. It is going to be an interesting 31 days and I will relish it.
I'm wondering, in a circus, could the clown be the saddest person around? If he is entertaining others, who is going to entertain him? Hmmmm...


The time to do a stock check of my own life is approaching. I wonder how I would fare? The least I would hope for is that I have made a mark (a good one and not a bad one!) in all my new friends I have made over the past year. At the same time, I wished that I have been there enough for my family and my good friends.


One day, all of us will be able to walk hand in hand with someone we love, down to town. Do a bit of shopping and then watch a funny movie, followed by a nice little dinner in a cosy cafe. Then we would take a little walk on the Sheares bridge (because it is absolutely beautiful when you look out over the bridge at the Esplande and the cityscape at night), talking about the movie, shopping and making plans for the next day. You would sneak a kiss and your love one will give you a hug. After all thats done, both would go back to the place where both of you call home. It would be a place where both of you know that your love has come home and it is where it will stay.

I think I have rumbled on enough. I better go take a pill for me headache. I got to stop this thinking. I am using up all my brain power for the year!
I wonder if there is any medication to soothe the heart?

Somedays you want to stay in bed, some you want to go out into the sun. Somedays, you just want to laze around at home, other time, you want to be in town and in a crowd.

There will be times when you feel that the world is going against you and nothing is going right, while there will be periods when everything in your life runs smoothly.

Random thoughts at different times yield very dissimilar results; Various actions bring forth very varied reactions.

Someday, I hope to be a father. A proud father of children who can do some good with their lives.
I hope to be a husband. A loving husband to a wife who will mean the world to me.
I am a son. I hope to be a good son to my loving parent and that I have done and will continue to do her proud.
I hope to be a friend. A good friend to all my good friends and a friend whom they can depend on.

I am a lousy student. There I have said it.
I just cannot stand studying for anything and I am definitely allergic to exams! Needless to say, I barely passed my final (and so I thought) exams back in my Uni days by the skin of my teeth. But by a sudden stroke of luck (yeah, sure) I am now plunged into the dark world of studying and sitting for another exam. The job requires that I get a certification for what I am doing, translating to many hours spent mugging (never thought that I would use this phase again) and getting myself mentally prepared for an exam.

I'm sure you have watched the movie, "The Matrix". Remember the scene where Neo needed to learn kung fu. They just downloaded everything into his mind and BOOM! he knew kung fu. Now then, if only I have one of those machines, then passing exams would be as easy as ABC.

Sheeshhh...
I guess today is one of those brain-dead days.
My mind is in a total shut down mode and no matter how much I try, I just cannot seem to kick start it. Must have overloaded it with all the thinking over the last few days. Man, I can really feel the white ones growing off my head, even as I type this.

I am not the sort that believes in horoscope but I still like to read them. And from what I have read, Leos are suppose to be real worriers - one of the rare few weaknesses they possess. *laff*. Yep, you got it, the other weakness is that they are damn ego! But still, I do believe that I am pretty much justified to be worrying even though others might not think that my issues are issues afterall. There might be people staving around the world, there might be floods, famine and wars but being the humans that we are, we always have just one thinking. My own problems are always the biggest problems.

Unfortunately, or maybe fortunately? I do not think so. My problems are rather trivia problems. They are problems which can be resolved, as compared to those that cannot. My problems are at a personal level and so there is only one person who can solve them and thats me. I just need to set my heart and mind right.
Ooooo... the fate of the world are on my shoulders - at least thats what I like to think. (,")

Never knew that a person can ever feel this way. And I would never want to wish this feeling on even my worst enemy. Monty Python sings it," Always look on the bright side of life ... *whistle*" .... all together now!....

Just finished lunch and had my coke.
Boy, did I need my coke today. Its just one of those days I guess.

Feeling a little tired today because work had required me to run around quite a bit for the last few days. I had to run to different sites, supporting my users. NOT an easy task, trust me.
I guess its a little like life. If only one can live by himself, no need to depend on anyone, no need for anyone to depend you, no need to have anyone. Life would be rather simple, don't you think so?
Unfortunately, no man is a rock, isn't it? How can one live their lives without even one person in his life? How could it be that no one depended you and you depended on no one?

There are lots on my mind, but I have set out a plan to get over this stress. I will be embarking on a 'one step at a time' plan. Pressing matters first, one by one.
Wish me luck!

STOP!
Think of a person close to you, right this very moment. Who is it that you see in your mind?
If its someone from your family, why not give him or her a call right now? Just to say hello and find out how are things at home?
If its a close friend whom you just saw yesterday, why not drop him or her an email or a sms to tell the person how much you enjoyed last night and would be looking forward to the next time you guys meet.
Ifs its a friend you have not seen in sometime, well, don't you think it is high time you do?
If its someone you love, why not just tell him or her that, right now, in any way you can.

Hectic day. On the run since morning and have just returned to office. Man, the weather here can really be a killer, ain't it? But one thing about life though, never a dull moment, well, at least if you made it out to be so.

I was speaking with a friend and we came to the topic of how important a sense of humour is in your future life partner.
Well well well, I said, it is pretty important. Does not really matter if she does not make me laugh much, just as long as she has a sense of humour. One must be able to laugh at others and with others but most importantly, we must be able to laugh at ourselves. Don't you think so?


I like to baby the person I love.
I like to wake in the night just to check on her to see if she is well covered up; If she is sick, I like to make sure that she is well taken care of - drinking lots of water, taking her medication on time, getting enough rest - all the time; If she is out having fun with her friends, I like to be the one to send her to the meeting place and then be the one to fetch her home, just in case she is tired after a long day of fun. I would like to cook for her, if given the chance and if she would eat the stuff I cook, of course!
Ahhh yes, subjected to whether she would let me or whether I would ever have the chance, I would definitely love to baby my baby.

So whats interesting in your life today?

Someone once asked me,' Would you rather be with someone you can live with or be with someone you cannot live without."
Good question and I answered it the only way I knew how to, with the truth. The answer is true to myself.

Would you be one of those who would rather 'love and lost then to never have loved before'? Incidentally, this was a line which was used often by a certain DJ who happens to be back on air again after a 3 year absence. I don't like him.
But what he said did stick with me some. I am an idealist, so my answer to that? I would rather have loved and held on to that love for my lifetime. I don't want to lose that love and I definitely would not want to 'never have loved before'.

Its easy to fall in love, but it takes lots of work to stay in love.

Father's Day...
In one way of anther, I do hope that your father knows how you feel for him.
I know mine does.

Its a feeling that is totally unforgettable, the feeling of a warm body next to you when you sleep. Not one of those guy friends of yours who used to sleep over after one of those wild nights out. Its the feeling of your loving girl lying there beside you as she sleeps.

It amazing how beautiful a woman can look when she sleeps. The beautiful face just in front of you, so peaceful and tranquil. The body, moving in rhythm with her breathing. Sometimes, strands of her hair might just fall over her face, but it just enhances the beauty that is her. She turns this way and than that. And then, shifts over to you and positions her head just at the little cock of the shoulder joint and places her hand on your chest. Sigh... bliss.

I do hope that she sleeps well tonight, as well as other nights.

All right, I admit it. I'm fat.
Well, not really FAT fat, but fat enough to make me feel really unhealthy. I do not like that feeling at all. I hate it when I begin to breathe heavily after just walking up 1 flight of stairs. I can't stand it when after a meal, I actually feel that my pants are tightening around my waist.

Sigh! Its really time to get down to some serious exercise. I could always blame it on age. You know, as you grow older, your girth just gets bigger. Some thing like your waistline is directly proportional to your age. I wish!
We know that its not like that. I know that its not like that. I just got to get down to it then.

I need to exercise. Not to lose weight. No, thats secondary. I need to exercise to feel fit again.
I'm serious! Believe me, please.

Heard over the radio that Gregory Peck passed away. He was 87.
Remember him? I remembered him as Atticus Finch from "To Kill A Mockingbird", the movie based on Harper Lee's book. It was a good movie and it was a good book.
I remembered the court room scene; the scene where he shot the rabid dog (its name just eludes me now); the last scene where Boo Ridley finally came out of his home. He was a fine actor and I hope that he is in a better place right now. What were the names of the 2 children now? I know Scott was the girl but just cannot seem to remember what was the boy's name. Can you?

Sometimes life is like that. Everyone seemed to be disagreeing you; the odds are stacked against you; sometimes even your loved ones might think differently from you. But true courage would be to do what you believe is the right thing; to go ahead and do something because you are true to yourself.

What happens when you lose someone? Family, love one, a friend?

It does not really strike you at the beginning. It probably takes a few days to sink in and when it does, the tears will slowly flow.

I miss him though he nags; I miss him for his nagging. I miss him though he was always waiting up for me when I got home and he would question me for coming home late; I miss him because he was always there waiting for me when I came home late. I miss the sat dinners with him and I miss seeing him on his rocking chair, reading his morning papers.

I miss the late night conversations with her and her infectious giggle. I miss the feel of her light kisses on my face and I miss looking after her.

I miss my dad and I miss small nose because I love them.

Coke is my happy drink. Do you have a happy drink?

There comes a time in your life when something really significant happens and it sort of pulls the rag out from under your feet. When you are down there on the cold hard floor, you begin to see things from a different perspective and see things more clearly. Suddenly, you realise what you want out of life and how you should be living it. Only problem is whether you want to get off your butt and go get it.

Recommendation for good and cheap brownies : A little cafe call Creation situated at Shaw Towers (I think its called that) at Beach Road. Nett prices w/o GST. Warm and nutty piece of brownie served with a scoop of vanilla ice cream.
You get half a piece with the set lunch/dinner but you get a full piece with the ala carte menu. Worth it to pay for an extra scoop of ice cream if you get the full brownie.